I created this blog after using my instagram platform (hadoolxoxo) to document my work, fitness and life musings. A suprising number people suggested that I should set up a blog (don't ask why..).So I finally decided to give it ago.! 

I was born...

*DISCLAIMER* this blog talks about domestic abuse, depression and anxiety. Please avoid reading further if you think you will be triggered. 

On the evening of May 12th 2015 I was physically and emotionally abused for the last time by my ex husband. I was kicked and insu...

Disclaimer: This blog explores anxiety. Avoid reading further if you think you will be triggered.

Surprisingly, 

I've had a fair number of people message me to ask when I'm going to write my next blog post and that it has 'been a while'. Noo idea why, but it is appreciat...

Warning- This blog involves mentions domestic violence, depression, anxiety and suicide. Please avoid if you think you will be triggered. PLEASE talk to someone. 

Sometimes it's easier to write then reach out to someone (even if I'm shite at writing!).

I don't have to de...

Zac Efron transformation. Note the increase in muscle mass, body fat percentage reduction and visible abdominal definition.

Bikini competition transformation. Note the '3D shoulders'.

This post has been brewing for a while. The more I learn about weightlifting, the more...

Disclaimer 1: This post contains traumatic experiences, death and views on religion. Please avoid if you feel you will be triggered.

Disclaimer 2: This post reflects my personal opinions and experiences. It has not been written to give opinion on other peoples faith or...

Warning this blog has triggers about abuse. Please avoid if you think you will be affected.

When ever I get chatting to someone, the subject of my previous marriage usually pops up. This typically occurs if I am speaking to a guy and he asks about my relationship histor...

Body Weight

Includes:

• Organs 

• Bones: approx 2.5% of body weight)

• Muscle: can't really have too much muscle, the more the better, as it improves health & longevity

• Fat: this includes different percentages for males and females, see below for more info a...

Relationships are hard work.

I've done marriage

I've done online dating

I've done old school dating.

I have learnt and reflected on what I have experienced. I hope I'm wiser for it.

Marriage

I'm not going to go into detail and explain why it ended, as I have touched on this...

*Disclaimer: some graphic detail/mood triggers*

Current mood: meh.

This is real progress from feeling so low, I wished I didn't exist.

I don't feel sad or happy. If anything I just feel tired. Not physically- I still run and lift shit.

It's everything else I don't have the...